A note to self….

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You ever look at an old picture of yourself….and wonder…why am I here? Why was I created this way….big hair… rambunctious…messy…laughed alot…stayed up late…watching the stars…all those things as a child..I was so free. Never caring about the next day….I try to think about how life surpressed that inner child over time. With doubt…low self esteem. ..image issues…all these issues chipped away at that little girl inside. This little girl…so scared of her rare and unique form….she chose to conform just to be considered normal. That desire to be desired led me down paths of self destruction…abuse.. a broken heart…a lost soul.. a distracted fool…all for the need to be wanted..loved…desired…all to feel validated. I became so lost within…you could almost hear the cries from the little girl just begging to come out again. That little voice inside saying…You are better than this…it’s almost as if I had to shatter like glass just to see clearly. Piece by piece…the little girl inside helped to put that puzzle back together. She helped with each fragment…beauty…talent…intellect….knowledge….all these things I chose to supress…because I was afraid of my own true success….I still to this day Ask God why he Continues to Bless…what used to be such a mess. But now I’m beginning to see why He chose to create me. I am rare…so unique and I have the ability to take chances that most wouldn’t even dare to try. So what..I fell a couple times..got hurt
..but after the tears dry…I continued to learn…I must get back up. You see…if ever I got the chance to speak to my 2 yr old self I’d say…never stop dreaming..always enjoy lauging…love hard…it’s ok if no one gets you…its ok if what you do isn’t cool…or the next trend. Continue to be true..don’t hold back….never be afraid to just….be…you. If ever you wonder why you choose to press forward…look deep inside to the little person in you. They are still very much apart of who you are today… Don’t ever forget where you began….these are the moments you will need to keep you encouraged along the way.

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2 thoughts on “A note to self….

  1. Such an amazing transparent realization, you are created uniquely for that purpose alone, there are over 7billion people in this world and at least 100 thousand need to hear this. Keep growing queen!! #Bmichavery

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